Sorry for the hiatus. I’d gone into a hibernation of sorts, taking lots of time to rest and lay on the couch during the times I would normally read and write. This pregnancy has been a little tougher than the last one (many have suggested some of the fatigue could be due to chasing a certain someone around, they might be right. Ben is FAST. ;))
Today I sat to write and thought I’d have words about this first trimester and things I’m learning from it. And then I sat down with my Bible and decided to spend some time meditating on my March Memory verse and God just started showing me things that are too good to not share.
Psalm 25:4-5 talks about the things that are constantly on all of our minds. What am I doing? What am I supposed to be doing? It’s amazing how frequently in talking to friends the thing that is on their heart is related to these questions- should I stay in this job? Should I take a new job? Should I pursue ___? What am I DOING?
I ask myself these questions too. What should my time be filled with? Should I do Beach Body Coaching? Should I pursue my Master’s Degree in Counseling? What should I involve myself with at church? I know my husband asks similar questions. Should we buy that house? Should I pursue farming?
Psalm 25:4-5 says
“Show me the path where I should walk O LORD; point out the right road for me to follow.
Lead me by your truth and teach me for you are the God who saves me.
All day long I put my hope in you.”
I’m constantly asking God to show me the path to follow, the right road to take. I ask Him to lead me by His truth and teach me. Yet as I was reading these words it really stood out to me that it says “for you are the God who saves me.”
Why not “for you are the God who made all things.” Or “for you ordain all the days of my life.” Or something to that affect? I decided to stay on this and pray about it and think about it and thoughts started coming to my mind.
What is it about God SAVING me that makes Him the one to TEACH and LEAD me? Maybe this seems like a needless question or an obvious question. Maybe my pregnant brain is making much ado about nothing.
But it stood out to me and the answers that started coming brought me extra hope and joy.
If God is the one who saves me that tells me some things about Him:
If God has the concern and care for me to SAVE me when I deserved for Him to CONDEMN me, then won’t He show that same concern and care in teaching and leading me? It must take some pretty awesome love to take rebels and enemies and make them your family and friends. And that’s exactly what He did. The truths He points out and the paths He directs me to must be enveloped in the same love and tenderness that caused Him to put His son on a cross for me.
Furthermore, If God had the POWER to save me- literally the POWER to remove sin from me, and the power to bring Jesus to life again after He was dead, then doesn’t He obviously have whatever power it takes to ensure His promises come about? Who else has the power to make a dead person live? To make sure that a person never dies again? Can’t He then ensure that the truths and lessons He teaches me will result in what He says they will?
If God had the AUTHORITY to save me, isn’t He a trustworthy authority on what is TRUE? No one else can forgive sin in the way that God can. Others might say “I forgive you” and mean that they will choose to forget it, to not dwell on it, or to even remain in fellowship with someone, but only God can actually remove the sin and only God is the ultimate judge over what makes someone guilty or not guilty. He IS truth, the ultimate “knower” and the one who made things how they are. So if He is telling me there is a path to follow in my life, and I don’t trust Him, what is it I am not trusting? Am I thinking maybe He really doesn’t know? Or maybe He really isn’t able? Or maybe He really isn’t in a position to tell me what to do?
How can I question Him? Why should I worry?
And if I’m being honest with myself I often do question Him. I often do worry.
That brings me to the last part of verse five:
“All day long I put my hope in you.”
Hope in the Bible is described as waiting confidently for something or having a confident expectation. So for me to put my hope in God all day long means I am making a purposeful decision to be confident in what God is doing in my life. I am choosing to take God at His word, to trust that what He says has happened happened, that what He says will happen really will. God knows us and our weak minds. How we can easily drift from a mind at rest to one full of anxieties and worries. He knows how quickly we are filled with “what ifs”. Yet we can choose to take each drifting thought and pick it up and put it back on the God who saves us. I can choose, all day long, to keep reorienting my mind and my heart and my confidence to the God who is loving, powerful, and authoritative.
Lead me and teach me Oh God, because there is no one more trustworthy, no one who knows me better, than You.